Tuesday, January 11, 2011 @ 1:12 AM
Even if a drinker says "its just one drink" i don't believe that even though you are someone I know for very long time, cause it's bullshit. When you are drunk, how the fuck do you knw you are going to drink just one drink? You'll prolly end up drinking few more bottles and you'll prolly end up doing stupid stuffs that you might not realise or I might not know. Tht's my perception of a drinker. Sorry no offense I just hate drinkers. And what's worst, let's say, how will you be able to know you can control your drinking knowing you have not been drinking for more than a year or two? How? And why start again when you've stop? Isn't that a good thing to stop?
It's like im slashing myself after so long of not slashing and you'll prolly hate ppl who slash themself cause it bullshit. Well, drinkers & slashing of oneself, no diff to me. It's just a slash why make a big deal? What would you react if I say that. I won't die what. So what if some ppl say drinking is at least better than slashing, which part? You just end up killing your own internal organs slowly, you'll be addicted to it, making ppl whom once trusted you hate you, oh wait, you prolly wont care cause you got other friends or etc right? Oh wait, you knw yourself better right? Right right. But wait, your drunk, how conscious are you that you knw yourself better? Hmm oh you knw you wont get drunk easily. "GET DRUNK EASILY?" Doesnt that sentense shws you are unsure that you'll get very drunk or not. So what the fuck do you mean by you knw yourself better? Whatever the reason I gotten, every single one of it is plain bullshit. Im really sorry la but of course Im mad, your not a drinker and you drink. Drinker zaman dulu uh but now not pe. And Im mad like this cause I care! But I'll end up getting fucked because you're mad when I'm babbling and keep dragging abt it. Of course i'll drag and babble cause you are not giving me explanations that makes sense. Plus, you make me feel should I or should I not trust you that kind of thing. But nvm, everything's settling down now so just think for the sake of someone you love and yourself.
~Side track, it was shocking you told me straight forward, "people sometimes break promises"
Im not trying to find fault here, but why promise me in the first place when you know you can't keep it? Oh wait, you dunnoe that you can keep it until it just appear out of your mind. Riiight.~
And I gave you freedom by allowing you to do anything except for just one thing tht you knw I hate it alot but you had to take advantage of it? *Wonders* But glad that you ask rather than doing it behind my back. I guess. Still waiting for the face to face apology thinggy. Im hurt.
And
Mr strawberry, your conselling, sungguh motivating..somehow. lol
Prolly sooner or later when my brains starts to explode and I cant think of anything, this will happen. HAHA -.-
And like I say
Three faces the sea,
Spikes facing the hand,
If you walk straight,
that's where I am.
